Leafos
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Re: kundalni report
thankyou Alloya for your continued love, support & acceptance, it is deeply appreciated & much needed too, so thankyou again - x.
Tocisins do you take conventional medication to help with your bi - polar - diagnosis ?
I struggle to sleep to in high phases & this can be the main cause for me "losing" touch with this reality all together. This is dangerous / horrendeous - cause then i have to "medicate" to shut my process down, which for me is "hell" - it keeps all of my "crap" stuck inside of me & prevents me from going forward & progressing, which in these phases is absolutely terrifying to me & causes all sorts of terror / horror / panic attacks / episodes & experiences which i really strugle with & cannot handle at all - it's horrific sometimes. But am feeling i am getting through this, i am feeling more positive with each manic phase & hope for better in the future - hang in there tocsins - x.
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7/19/2008, 4:56 am
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I was having risperdol injections for about a year. I had an injection every two weeks. I never truly felt it had any effect on me. However I did start gaining weight during this period and I had a hunch it could be the medication that was making me gain weight. So I got off it. I'm not on any meds right now. My parents and my family say I'm doing alright.
Fact is however, I don't get very much sleep. Life is still pretty f'in harsh. I don't get much joy out of anything, but I persevere, I don't have a reason for persevering, it's just a mechanical response to struggle against death. Like someone who's had their throat cut and is gasping for air, they're going to die anyways, they are already dead, but it's simply an automatic animal response to continue gasping for air anyways until they are physically overcome.
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I am ascending as I complete physical actions that trigger the subconscious needs of Kundalini.
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