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wills wrote:

  My Personal Struggles with Demotions
           by.WMM.

I stand there looking into the looking glass. Trying to make sure my tie is right and that my uniform fits just right. My wife tries to reassure me that it is going to be just fine. That I look great. My mind begins to wander throughout my life.Would my grand dad be proud of me? I am sure that one day I shall make Captain. I am sure he would be very proud of me.I was also afraid that my father was disappointed in me as well. Though he never said it I knew he was upset that I had still to be made a Captain. I was 39 years old my life was going nowhere fast. I had to do something to change it. I had to make an impression on my bosses to let them know I am capable of handling their ships. What was I gonna do?
How could I tell my wife MY AID that I was once again demoted. It was something I knew I could not face her on. I know she would be supportive but after all this time I thought pehaps even she herself had began to doubt my abilities.I hear ADA holler up the stairs at me ..though I did not really pay attention as to what it was she said.
I began packing my bag for the final voyage with Captain Smith.Titanic...I was supposed to have been her chief but Harry came aboard for one final voyage as chief .I was much better then them .I haeld all my certifricates. I was even more qualified to sail her then anyone else on board. Why was I still having to face Wilde and Smith ? This just did not seem right. Why has my career been littered with so many set-backs?I was always the good boy. The one whom stuck with his duties and his studies I did not stray ...I worked very hard and for what ..to be told Im sorry William but for this voyage you must step back a notch.. Step back a notch who the hell does he think he is?Giving me the orders to step back and I just have to take it? I had not realized but Aid had came into the room and saw me crumbling up my clothes and just tossing them into the bag.. She saw how frustrated I was and said William get ac ontrol on that temper.I know you are upset but think of it this way my dear... you are sailing on the biggest ,safest, most luxurious ship in the world. You will be beack in no time flat. Oh honey I ma soproud of you .Besides I heard even Lightoller is on board as well. You two together always had so much fun. Please try to behave.. I know you will as taht was how you were really raised keep the temper down and you will be fine.. Yess I know but the truth is darling it will b the end of you if you don't find a way to let it all out. I know you are worried about not being a Captain yet.. that is ok .. You are great at what you do so just leave it alone..with that she wrapped her arms around my waiste and told me ..now officer Murdoch if you do not get a move on you will miss your ship..

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wills wrote:

thank you Ma,
I am glad you iked it ..

by chance did you get my email pm ?


will

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